Fri 23 Jul 2010
Love is real, real is love*
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Yes, even chubby girls like to sit outside in skimpy paisley bikinis and paint their toenails bright pink. I actually have teeny-weeny tan lines, amazing because I don’t tan.
inner voice: Oh come ON not more pictures of bushes and grass and shit.
me: Fuck off, the nice-weather-in-Seattle phase goes faster than you can imagine, and I’m gonna soak it up.
We could all use more cuhluh in our lives.
Maggie and Molly meet a new dogfriend at the park.
Er, well, you know how it is.
If I’m being particularly “good” then oftentimes I will just have a single yogurt for lunch, which I eat slowly. How do you say…eating disordered, much? Speaking of eating disorders, yesterday I watched “Thin“, a documentary following 4 women hospitalized for anorexia. They don’t look that tiny plodding up to the scale in their billowing hospital gowns, but when the scale reads 83 then you go, whoooaaaa. Yikes. A cautionary tale.
Today I see my therapist, so I get to show her the “emotional ups and downs” chart I made. No revelations–in March I was becoming extremely depressed and then in April I had my nervous breakdown and quit working. Holy shit, I haven’t worked since April! I just turned in a job application today, though, so we’ll see. PART TIME PLEASE GOD THAT’S ALL I ASK IS PART TIME.
Also: yesterday’s shocking 11 pound weight loss was a fluke. Fucking digital scale, why must you taunt me so?
* So it wasn’t until last night when I was watching a documentary about John Lennon’s first solo album “Plastic Ono Band” that I realized he sings the song “Love”, which is played at the end of “Adam and Steve” and makes me cry every damn time. Here is the video on youtube, such a beautiful song.
Update: I just watched the video and tears rolled down my face. So maybe it wasn’t “Adam and Steve” that made me cry, just that song. Sniff.
What “chubby”? You’re like half my size and I’m not even chubby!
Oh, it’s all about the camera angles, sweetie dahling. I have realized recently that unless I diet ALL THE TIME, my weight shoots up faster than…well, really fast. It’s kind of depressing, really. I don’t ever want to be fat again, unless I’m pregnant, then it’s acceptable.
Also Alyson you appear to have a fabulous rack, just sayin’. :)
Yep, I told Aly she has a fabulous rack!
You know, it’s funny, I thought of you when I was writing that comment. Shit I talked to Corinne yesterday and I forgot to ask her if she’s moving forward with the breast reduction.
I was also thinking that I’d like to dress Corinne up in my black corset and paint her holding a black parasol. I think that would be hot.